Wow it's been 2 weeks since I have blogged! That is the longest I've gone since I started blogging about 2 years ago. The funny thing is that it really doesn't even seem like it's been that long. I feel like November came and went and I was sleeping or something. I think I've been in survival mode lately. So many tests going on with Dallas and just trying to figure out how to be the best parent for him that I can be. The stress of it all has been exhausting. The ideal mother I measure myself against in my head isn't realistic in any way at all and I'm letting her go as I pray for God to make me the best mom I can be. There's so many women out there that "display" themselves a certain way when they are away from home. The sad thing is that a lot women (me included many times) actually believe they are perfect in many ways We believe they are doing a better job at being a mommy, running a household and being the perfect wife. But the truth is that none of us are. We are all sinners and only by the grace of God can we do a great job. I do wish everyone would be transperent. And I wish we as women wouldn't compare ourselves to other women. God made us who we are, he gave us the husband that is the right match for us and he gave us the perfect children for us to parent. We are the only ones that can do the best job with them. And as hard as parenting seems sometimes I hold onto that truth. I know that he made me to be the parent for Boston, Dallas and Asher, and through him I can do the best job I can do. Again, ONLY through Him can I do it! With a constant conversation with Him all day I can parent them. It's not necessarily the "right" parenting book or the "perfect" parenting style, its by being in the Word, by drawing closer to God, that he can give me the answers I need, the wisdom I desire, and a heart like Jesus.
I'm running this race. And just when my water bottle is out and I feel like I can't go on, God always steps in, picks me up, and carries me to the finish line in record speed!
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7
So for a little bit this morning I'm going to "catch up" on the last two weeks of blogging so I don't feel like they "slipped away."