Choosing to celebrate the hardships God has placed in my path and going one step further and calling them blessings instead of hardships is where I would like to be. It's those quiet little moments when I see a glimmer of Gods love that gives me the fuel to keep going. It's clips like the one I have linked that remind me of the joy in my life, because all too often, especially on a bad day, it's hard to see the sunshine in the rain. But today I reminded of the strengths of Aspergers and how much farther Dallas will go in life because he has it, because he's been wired differently, because he can do things I can't.
This morning I woke up stressed about the choice for Dallas school next year. Not that I really have much choice in where he goes (the school we are zoned for is definatly a no go, he's still on the waiting list for the charter school Boston is going to, and homeschoo for him would be very difficult with the two little ones always interupting-he needs consistcy and being interupted isn't good). I have felt total peace about the school he is going to next year until this morning. Dallas has had a great week at the beach. While Boston and Asher kept getting in trouble, Dallas came out smelling like a rose. He was so well behaved! Then this morning I started thinking about the "special" class he is going to be in a piece of me started to freak out. I'm trusting God that he will show me the way and open doors that need to be opened. I know His plan is perfect and His timing is perfect and I just need to rest in that.